Funny Ha Ha's

This week, one of my co-worker's father died. My co-worker is only 21 and I think, "Wow what a life changing moment for someone so young." I try to think how I will handle the passing of my own parents (should it occur before my own death). As I grow older, I don't see the change from my being nurtured and raised by my parents to becoming their caretaker. I sometimes feel bad that I've moved so far away, and am jealous that my brother and sister are back East with my parents and still close. I understand and enjoy how my relationship with my parents has changed though over the years - from a naive child to almost a respected peer. Regardless, I still feel that I still don't know my parents well. I don't really understand their needs, fears, happiness. Will I ever tap into it? Do I want to tap into it?

Family relationships are so odd - and disfunctional when really they seem so normal from the outside. I feel that I've spent so much time talking among my immediate family w/o listening that now I can't do it. I can't open up to hearing them, even if they wanted me to. It's frustrating that I feel so changed and evolved with my own self-awareness that I've failed to let my family into my growth - or attempted to. Maybe I under-estimate them...I think I need to make it my New Year's resolution to better that communication.

It's amazing how small our world is. I go out and meet up with friends and find out one is a neighbor by about 7 blocks. Then when going to get a beer I run into someone I hadn't seen for almost a year. Something must be in the air. It sure didn't help in my pool game though - sank the 8 ball on every occasion. Shucks.

So last nite I go out and have a really great time at the Cuff. Turns out the two people I meet with my friend Chuck (Lisa & Ryan) both think that I'm really cute and proceed to battle through the nite for my attentions. Gosh, it's nice to be flattered by boys and girls when you're out on the town. Too bad I don't have a straight clone of myself. And on a side note - why did I end up with olives on the back seat of my car?

So, I'm trying this Blogger ting out to see if it will be anything useful for the future.